It’s also what my mother has instilled

"It’s also what my mother has instilled in my sisters and me so much, that joy comes from the smallest things,“ she says. “And if you don’t see joy in a perfect avocado or in a great conversation or in running into a friend or getting a job – if you don’t see joy in a perfectly beautiful tree in autumn – then you are missing your chance at happiness. Because if you don’t find it in the small things and you only wait for big moments, then you’ll just not be a happy person."

People are looking for homes

People are looking for homes
of habir, stuffed with other

people to love, or simply
a loving quiet.

People leave for new homes
when old homes darken

with disappointment.
Other people’s homes

are warm with fireplaces;
spacious and bright

with peace.
People are homes for each other.

Homes reassure each other
that they are homes.

Some people do not need homes.
For them, any room or floor

will do. They live in travel.
their hearts are rivers.

It’s messing people up, this social pressure to

“ It’s messing people up, this social pressure to “find your passion” and “know what it is you want to do”. It’s perfectly fine to just live your moments fully, and marvel as many small and large passions, many small and large purposes enter and leave your life. For many people there is no realization, no bliss to follow, no discovery of your life’s purpose. This isn’t sad, it’s just the way things are. Stop trying to find the forest and just enjoy the trees. ”

When the depression takes over you

"When the depression takes over you feel like you aren’t in control. It's like you’re drowning.
Every bad memory, every single thing that hurt you, every bad thing you’ve ever done comes back and grabs you by the ankle and drags you back under the water just as you’re about the reach the surface. It’s suffocating and not being able to do anything about it.
The hardest part is you never know when these thoughts are going to come. Some days you’re just so happy and can’t believe how good your life is, and the very next day you could be alone in a dark room unable to see because of the tears welling up in your eyes and thinking you’d be better off dead. You feel alone, you feel like a burden to everyone around you, you feel like the world would be better off without you. I wish it was something I could just turn off but I can’t, no matter how hard I try."

I look at people and wonder

“I look at people and wonder at how they can endure and continue. It could be the joy when one has finally succeeded, the warm smile of a loved one, a friend, a great cause or simply, hope. Something I could understand, but can never have.”

I don’t know anything

“I don’t know anything with certainty, but seeing the stars makes me dream.”

She never felt like this before

"She never felt like this before. Suddenly this world seems so beautiful, there's this new hope in the horizon....that sky seems waiting for her to color the rainbow for it. She never had such feelings before. She's never been loved like this before. She doesn't know how to react to it.
Why are you crying dear? - he asked.
She can't answer. She just holds him even more tightly."

She told me

She told me : compared to last year you were happy ,you laughed a lot and seemed alive , but this year you seem as if you are depressed and all sucked up in pain.
I'm not , I said. But I'm tired , a year my darling can take someone's soul and leave them empty swimming in the ocean of their regrets and as far as I'm concerned my ocean is about to dry out.

We are constantly scared not

"We are constantly scared not to find someone who could understand us when we couldn't describe it.
Not to find someone who could know that we are good no matter the bad things we do.
Not to find someone who will exist no matter how boring our lives are.
We are afraid of being forced to be alone.
Not of choosing to be alone."

- I love you

- I love you
= Even in my worst?
- Because of your worst

The right person will always see how beautiful you are because of your imperfections, not in spite of them.