Broken Self

Broken Self

Pacing up the stairs,

Beyond the borders of serenity.

I swept through the wilderness,

And gazed into a mirror.

Deconstructing the cracks,

I molded myself whole again.

You can see that I have become so candid

You can see that I have become so candid that I can endure only human relationships which are absolutely genuine. I avoid half-friendships.

- Friedrich Nietzsche

Through out my whole life

Through out my whole life; there were many achievememts which everyone celebrated whole heartedly with me.. but one failure! Just one failure turned everything upside down for me .. nd I can see people who reach to you in their worst times are the real gems nd u need to hold on to them. Not everyone is able to love the crying & failing you.. many get happy deep inside but the one who still stand woth you nd make you feel that you are never alone are bestest humans. I love u all nd will hv always best wishes nd duas fr u🌸

I hv experienced it nd i must say!🌸

How could you feel worthless

"How could you feel worthless when God has honoured you by creating you and choosing you to be with Him, in this life and the next? You are worthy. You are worthy of love. You are worthy of respect. You haven't failed. You're beautiful. Only the beautiful can see beauty. Never doubt your beauty. Never doubt your worth. It's not about how much you make, your grades, what people say or think. It's about you and God. It's about your heart. The blinding beauty of your heart."

The thing I learned this year

The thing I learned this year is that sometimes your 💯 percent is not enough for your loved ones, no matter how much efforts are you doing, no matter how much of your time, love and attention you give them they would not appreciate it.

But at the same time I've made peace with the fact that it's not mandatory to get the same amount of love, respect and time from your loved ones. they may be a priority to you but you may not be on the top of their priority list, you may love to share everything with them but they may hesitate to tell you even little things and it's okay to tell them what happened to you, what you did the whole day it is your choice to tell them every single detail but they may not feel free to open up their heart infront of you. Somtimes it hurts, not to be 'enough' for someone even though you're giving your all love and affection, after many years of keeping all toxic and broken bonds around I've realised that it's okay to give, it's okay to love and it's okay to make someone your top most priority but it's not okay to expect the same amount of love and attention back. everyone can't be you, every one can't be a giver like you're, some people just intend to receive either it be love,.attention or respect.

It's okay to care and love 🌺 but it's not okay to change.

How can you use a terrible word for anyone who has Iman?

A single word that can be offensive to someone is a horrible thing for anyone who has Iman. In other words, filthy language out of your mouth and faith inside your heart cannot coexist. You cannot have Iman in your heart and ugly words come out of your mouth. If you have no control over whatever four letter words you keep using every time you get frustrated, there's a spiritual problem, it's not just a habit problem.

How can you use a terrible word for anyone who has Iman?

It’s dark because you are trying too hard

“It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly my darling...”

After all life goes on

After all life goes on this sentence has alot of thoughts and sentiments in it.Although ,life is very hard journey full with troubles, hurdles,but time does'nt stop for anyone it has its journey from very long time ago.No doubt, life also has no full stop, people came and go but life goes on.Life is beautiful but it taught you many lessons as you grow in your life.A straight line is the symbol of death,so you have no worries and no difficulities but a curve line tells you that you have a life, you have troubles,bad time,good time,mistakes,and lesson in it.There is always change in life summer into winter, spring into autum and time passes very swiftly .

After All life goes on...!

It's okay to be happy

It's okay to be happy. sometimes we carry the guilt of it. the fear of it being torn away. sometimes it has been so long since the happy visited. you forget what it looks like. it is almost uncomfortable. you don't know how to make eye contact with it. you're afraid you'll scare it off. you'll try to connect it to a time, a place, or a person where being happy is almost wrong. but it's okay. let it iron the clothes. let it stitch the seams. we don't say this enough - how brave it is to let yourself be happy. but let it in. get used to the sun. accept the radiance. accept it, the way you accept the less sunny things. the less radiant things. the more scary things. even if it's been some time, even if you're afraid you'll scare it off. embrace it. put the trauma to sleep.look in the mirror. and say it as many times as needed: it's okay to be happy. it's okay to be happy. it's okay to be happy.

"I believe in Allah"

"I believe in Allah"

"I studied for the whole semester, I'll get the desired grades because I believe in Allah"

"I prayed day and night, why won't I get the person I love? I believe in Allah"

For most of us the definition of believe relies on humans, where we do a favour to one and "believe" that the favour will be returned.

While using the same word for Allah, we don't realise that our minds don't shift, our minds work with the same principle of definition of this sentence.

While we say we believe in Allah, we are unconsciously trying to impose a decision on the decision-maker. We are not believing in him, rather imposing a deal. We don't realise that Allah(swt) is far more superior than any "Give and take" .

So what does "believing" in terms of Allah mean? Quran defines it as "Taqwah" and it's meaning is far more accurate in terms of Almighty. Taqwah doesn't mean that if I'll do a certain set of things then I'll get the desired outcome. Rather it means I believe in Allah to an extent where I know, whatever the outcome will be, will be best for me.

For if he decides to bring mountains in my way, they'll teach me how to climb.

If he decides to put rivers in my way to success, they'll teach me how to swim.

It means believing to an extent where if you won't have anything to eat and will be dying the next moment, even at that harsh time, your inner core of the heart will still beat with the rhythm of "Alhamdulillah" . For Allah, whatever you've given me, and taken away from me, I thank you for that ❤️