- What’s the most thing you’re afraid of?

- What’s the most thing you’re afraid of?

Being forgotten.

- Can you explain how?

It’s like you turn off your phone for a week,

And when you open it,

You find zero messages and zero calls.

It’s when you’re in an outing with some people who are considered your friends,

Yet if you just leave, no one will notice.

No one notices your disappearance.

No one cares about where you are or what you’re doing.

You’re not important.

You’re the last choice.

They forget to tell you everything.

There are people who have been forgotten for a long time.

I pray for you all to have only someone who always remembers you.

Among other things,

“Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them—if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.”

Emotions an abstract reality of self :

Emotions an abstract reality of self :

Emotion is but manifestation of true personality .. Emotions evolution is based on feelings .. feelings compete with each other ( like virtue competing against vice , hope vs despair ) within to give us a certain emotion ..

These feelings subtly and gradually influences the thought process in a way that nourishes evil or virtue depending on what one is feeding ones spirit with .. in other words , these insignificant innate feelings paves way for the personality ..

This competition between negative and positive feelings is conscious in the first phase , and becomes unconscious automatic responses with passage of time .. the good innate disposition succumbs to vice if one feeds on vile .. The gauge to know from which feeling one is influenced how much is then emotion .. for example : if one feels guilty for cheating while other rejoice in doing so , shows how the emotion one feels tells about his/her personality .. Thus , emotions highlight the abstract reality of self , signifying where one stands by emotions one experience in presence of certain stimuli ..

I do want to isolate myself from the world for a while

I do want to isolate myself from the world for a while , but i don't want to hide myself in the room and be cornered with my fears , i do want to walk in a crowd full of actual strangers and just observe and not judge them , and by actual strangers i mean people who've ive never met and not those who catted their ties with me or i did with them , i want simplicity in the solitude not complexity in a society , i want to see what everyone sees without any kind of comparison not where you relate and debate.

I want to sit alone with a camp fire at least that will keep me warm if not a person , and i want to travel across distances not people's lives for once.

I want to live as who i am and not as how people expect me to.

I do want to live as "me" for once.

"Who are you?"

You wrote something in exam, read it again, felt like it was perfectly fine and came back home. The next day when you read the same answer, you saw a bunch of silly mistakes and wondered what was wrong with you? Sounds familiar?

That's how your mind plays with you. It tricks you into reading something which is in your mind, not what you write. It tricks you into seeing something which wasn't in your answer, but in your thoughts.

Now analyze your character, what do you see? An imperfect person yet ' somehow better than most of the people '? That again is your mind. Its tricking you into seeing some imaginary character which is in your mind, not you. A character which is righteous, ethical and spiritually above average humans, and a character which is ' at least better from heart ' .

The point is that our mind plays with us in such a subtle way that even we don't realize how evil, cocky, and sometimes toxic we are just because we ' don't have it in our heart ' . Believe me nobody is evil from the inside, nobody wants to be toxic, judge or mean.

So who is your true self? The imaginary character which lives in your soul or the one which is being portrayed by your actions, words and personality? Obviously the second one. Nobody else knows the inner self of yours, and there's no point in knowing that until it's being reflected by your outer character. So next time don't try to convince yourself by saying that ' at least I don't have anything in my heart ' because nobody does. The reason why someone is toxic is because they show it, not because they have it in their hearts. Next time analyze yourself according to what your outer personality is. You are what you show, not what you think you are.

Keep that in your prayers, always!

One of my biggest fears is getting attached to something that is not destined to be mine.

A job, a person, a place, or a dream..

اللهم لا تعلق قلبي بما ليس لي

Keep that in your prayers, always!

From so many days

From so many days

I have started to write again

From so many days

I'm not feeling sleepy and lazy all day

I'm more focused, I'm more concerned,I m loving myself

More than before,more than ever

Maybe it's due to little changes

Changes that no one notices but you

Maybe I m drowning in my own thoughts

Maybe I don't care about others nowadays

Maybe I m not comparing my self anymore

Having so many untold talks,stories & tales in my mind from so much time

Maybe now I m wishing to share it with my self

Yesterday I read in an article that happiness is decreasing every year and will end

But I will not be in that number I guess

I will be living happily, & fuckng sorrow&pain

After watching so many seasons &listening so many lectures of teachers everyday

They all saying, they all are indicating

Love your self before loving anyone

Value your self before valuing anyone

Be happy yourself before sharing happiness

And always seek for something new

Something super duper exciting and all you

Need do

Is

Love

Your

Self 💕

"STEP OUT OF THE FAKE WORLD!"

"STEP OUT OF THE FAKE WORLD!"

It's okay to be flawed, it's okay to be less privileged, it's okay to be poor, it's okay to be 'not so pretty' , it's okay to be fat, it's okay to be dark, it's okay to be short heightened, it's okay to be underweight, it's okay to be jobless, it's okay to be the one with a 2 GPA, it's okay to be living a NOT SO PERFECT LIFE!

It really is.

We've all made perfection a standard to survive in our society. Therefore, all we do in life is just chasing these unreal standards and die!

Whereas, actual life is far more meaningful and purposeful than that.

Just when we get this!

Think about it.

The world with you seems calmer

The world with you seems calmer, as if there is nothing to worry about. Your laughter is like oxygen that spreads in the air, inhaled in lungs giving them life, giving them the necessity of life. Your hugs pluck the thorns out of another, and you let them hurt you but oh aren't you such a beautiful soul to care and love others more and to be there when they fall apart. Through your soul people seek for positivity and love as it flows in your blood and makes you this amazing human being who is strong, beautiful and undefeated. You have fire in your eyes, the determination never ends, the fight to reach the height never ends. Your heart is a flower, so beautiful but easily damaged, you are so lost in giving out to everyone that you permit everyone to hold your heart, and when they mistreat it, it hurts you, but you manage to fixate it back where it belongs, you let the light enter the holes of your heart, filling it and then you continue. Then you continue to reach out to the world, to give it more than you have ever received, to love it more than any love you have ever felt, to care for it more and be gentle with it no matter how much the world drives over you. Because my love, you are the best person alive, you make the earth worth living on, you make smiles more brighter, lives more beautiful. Oh love, the world without you would have been a chaotic place, thank you for being the calm waves of the ocean and teaching me such beautiful things

I had to write this to the girl not wearing her comfortable dress

*I had to write this to the girl not wearing her comfortable dress today fixing her self in that expensive outfit feeling uncomfortable in that whole lot of Make up, and to the boy who wanted to go to arts but now is struggling in an engineering college, and to the mum forcefully asking her daughter to fake smiles and to the dad who shifted his family to an upper class residential area where he knows no one Lekin logo ko nazar aana chahiye k hum high class hai is zyada important; and to whoever it may concern.*

“THE CONSTANT PRESSURE TO PLEASE PEOPLE.”

What happens when you carry a heavy load over your back?

You bend down. Right?

Similarly when you carry the burden of a constant urge to please people, when you are carrying the luggage of their opinions, and approvals; you bend down. Your self respect gets shattered and you bow down to the need of constantly making people satisfied from you.

And the noticed yet pretended to be un-noticed fact is: THEY NEVER GET SATISFIED.

You could go to the moon for them and they’ll still have the audacity to say that I never asked you tho!

We crave for appreciations and approvals, but for how long? You do a 100 good things to win that badge and then one day you fail to satisfy them and boom all your good gets wiped out.

Now the more funnier fact is, the people you are constantly trying to prove yourself and show-off are mostly those who hold the least important place in your life, you don’t really like them, yet you keep on carrying the burden to seek their attention and approval.

Now coming to the point straight,

REMOVE THIS SAC OF BURDEN FROM YOUR SHOULDERS. I WANT YOU TO STAND STRAIGHT. AND SAY ACCEPT ME THE WAY I AM, OR GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR OPINIONS.

I read in a book I am currently reading, their would always be people who would appreciate you for who you are and their would also always be a whole allot more of people who would laugh at you!

And that’s okay.

You can’t satisfy everyone and you certainly don’t need to.

The last thing the world wants is another robotic indifferent soul.

And then opinions are dynamic, they keep changing. Do not get stuck to them.

All that matters is, YOU SHOULD BE SATISFIED FROM YOURSELF.

Ps: their would always be some people you find at some stage of life that would love you the way you are. And make you feel really special. That’s your tribe. Hold them. And even if you haven’t found them, you are your own superhero, love yourself. But more than that accept yourself so that you don’t have to run behind meaningless acceptances.💛