Analysing how this year has turned out to be for many of us and what permanent impact it has left on us - scars are left permanently in our heads and hearts.

Analysing how this year has turned out to be for many of us and what permanent impact it has left on us - scars are left permanently in our heads and hearts. 

Keeping those as a reminder of our experiences we all have to keep these memories(bitter or sweet) alive. 

And when years will pass and when, just when we will start living our lives just as ordinary as we lived last year and the years before that, we would then never want to revisit this year. This would be the time you'll have to keep it alive, alive and fresh in your memories and yourself. So you don't forget the lives lost in this battle! So you don't forget those, whose memories were passed onto you. So you don't forget the fact that you are carrying the existence of those thousands of people who had to battle themselves alone in the isolation wards, as brave as this world has ever seen, resisting against the Covid-19. 

We all were pushed down with this overpowering Pandemic. Stabbing us with minor and major blows, it has given us mental and physical scars! And if you haven't overcome this pain, I have faith that you will! And if you already have, then let these scars be your medals of surviving this year. Although we lost many, leaving us in pitch black darkness that stung us with all the might. Let's pledge that while as desperate as we want this year to end, we must not forget! And we'll carry the lessons learnt, and will advance, accompanying all of those strong survivors and will cherish the journeys that are meant to be covered by us in future.

Hey girl,

I really want to hold your hands and tell you that I have feelings for you. But, suddenly, I come to the truth. I don't want to lose an another soul of my life. I feel expressing my feelings can make you leave me, and I don't want to repeat the same story again. 

On one side, I always start conversations and on other side, you always finish them with the unexpected replies. I think you're also afraid of something. As much as I know about you is that you're living a mechanical life. You are all about studies and even if you go for fun then you watch English movies and listen to English songs that I don't understand.

I, most of the times, feel that we both are totally different but then I watch something that you recently share. That thing really relates to me. Your interest in religion, particular islam, in history and also in languages is kinda my kind of activities.

I feel like we are exactly same personalities in one sight and totally different humans in the other sight. So, it's better to keep the things as they are going on.

Putting yourself first on your priorty list is the utmost level of maturity. You don't owe everyone an explaination.

Putting yourself first on your priorty list is the utmost level of maturity.

You don't owe everyone an explaination.

The more you explain yourself to others the more they let you down. Imagine someone is showing you an enraged behaviour cuz you were not in a good state to be available for them. Are we gonna get upset with someone who is not feeling well? Sounds ridiculous? Right? 

Making everyone happy is cool but you are not allowed to go out of the way to satisfy them. You are not allowed to demolish your mental peace. Super high standards regarding everything are awful. Labelling insecurity as possessiveness or care is toxic. Don't indulge yourself in this toxicity.

Once you reach "I am not responsible to make everyone happy" kinda level your life becomes much more serene. 

Take a chill pill dude you are not everyone's cup of tea!✨

جس مصیبت پر صبر کر لیا جائے وہ بہت جلد ختم ہو جاتی ہے

جس مصیبت پر صبر کر لیا جائے وہ بہت جلد ختم ہو جاتی ہے لیکن اگر اسی مصیبت پر اللّٰه کی رضا سمجھ کر شکر کر لیا جائے تو وہ مصیبت بہت جلد خوشی میں تبدیل ہو جاتی ہے، بات صرف اللّٰه پر توکل کی ہے..

There are times when I can't stop thinking about the past that haunts me. There are times when I feel too numb

There are times when I can't stop thinking about the past that haunts me. There are times when I feel too numb. Too emotional to show how I feel. Too anxious to speak because of the emotions that clog up my throat. I felt that pain again, yesterday,

Yeah! yesterday,

I wanted to yell, cracking my larynx to match the intensity of my throbbing heart. I wanted to scream, so loud that my lungs would tear apart into little fragments, just the way I wanted to be disintegrated into nothingness.

 

The pain was like drowning in the brightest but the deepest of oceans, where I felt numb, where the humming of quietness and the screaming of silence had me so passionately immersed within itself that I had no desire to resurface.

It was like walking in a desert where the sand was soft but engulfing. I had to drag my feet out with each step. My throat was drier than the sand under my feet but I couldn't find any periphery.

It was like walking into the forest drunk on its mesmerizing beauty but after getting lost within it, it lost the beauty, the sharp twigs and broken branches pierced through my skin. The green masses of forest scared me causing despair and desperation.

I don't fancy anguish.I don't desire the nausea that appears with constant anxiety.But sometimes, the pain that has gone far away, dimmer than the dimmest star in the sky comes back infuriating agony of the breakdowns I had. Those are the times when the numb feeling appears. The time when silence starts screaming.The time when I can't stop thinking about the past.

I wonder how important are our personal goals in life

I wonder how important are our personal goals in life. Aik to dead end goals hotay hein you achieve them and enter into a state of emptiness..'I got this so now what..what's next..does it even matter?' Someone dear to me once told me 'apnay aik goal ko hmesha unachievable rakhna' and this has stayed with me since then. Goal aisa hona chaye jo apko agay ki traf push karay aur improvement ki traf lay k jaye hmesha aur aisa na ho k once you achieved that you get empty or proud aur ye to sb k sath hota hy k jo hasil hojaye wo valuable nai lgta jitna tb valuable lgta hy jb wo unachievable hota hy. Goal should be something that keeps you going and something that keeps you in flow. Reassess your goals in life and ask yourself 'does it really matter in the end?' I don't deny the importance of materialistic goals like to make more money, to get a better job, a better degree to survive better in life but one should always keep in mind that even if you get the whole world and what is in it, it still would't be enough to fill the emptiness in you. Make goals that feed your soul and those that make your life more meaningful, goals that don't make you fearful of death. I love the Japanese concept 'ikigai' that means the reason for being. I believe every person on earth has a reason for being and its soleley one's personal quest to pursue one's inner calling. I will quote two Rumi quotes here for inspiration

"Respond to every soul that excites your spirit."

"Don't be safisfied with stories; how things have gone with others. Unfold your own myth."

Your goals may not match with others because just like everything is unique about you be it your being, your circumstances ,your aptitude, your personal choices similarly so are your goals in life. Aur Quran mein b yehi kaha gya hy k hr insaan se uski وسعت k mutabiq hisaab lia jaye ga. 

Don't view your goal as big or small. The key is persistence. Persistence is the only quality I admire in the devil. He never gives up no matter how many times we beat him. A small but persistent goal can do more wonders for you than a seemingly big but dead-end goal.

کبھی کبھی میں سوچتی ہوں کاش میرے پاس کچھ ایسے الفاظ ہوتے کہ میں اپنے آپ سے ناراض لوگوں کو بولتی اور وہ لوگ اپنی ناراضگی ختم کردیتے

کبھی کبھی میں سوچتی ہوں کاش میرے پاس کچھ ایسے الفاظ ہوتے کہ میں اپنے آپ سے ناراض لوگوں کو بولتی اور وہ لوگ اپنی ناراضگی ختم کردیتے،، کبھی کبھی مجھے اپنی دوست کی بہت یاد آتی ہے میں ہر طرف دیکھتی ہوں کہ میری دوست میری زندگی واپس کیسے آئے گی لیکن پھر میں بے بس ہو جاتی ہوں اور میں اللہ جی سے مخاطب ہو جاتی ہوں اور اپنے اللہ جی سے کہتی ہوں اللہ جی میں بے بس ہوگئی ہوں پلیز میری مدد کر دیجئے ناں،، پھر میرے دل میں خیال آتا ہے کہ میری دوست کی زندگی میں میری اب کوئی جگہ نہیں بنتی لیکن پھر بھی مجھے میری دوست کیوں یاد آتی ہیں،، میں چاہ کر بھی آپ کو اپنی زندگی سے اپنی یادوں سے دور نہیں کر پا رہی۔ میں اداس نہیں رہتی میں بہت خوش رہتی ہوں ، میں مایوسی ہیں میں مبتلا نہیں ہوں میں پُر امید ہوں لیکن مجھے آپ کی بہت یاد آتی ہے،، میں نہیں جانتی لیکن پتہ نہیں آپ میرے لیے اتنی اہم کیوں ہیں؟؟ 

اللہ کی رضا میں راضی ہوں لیکن مجھے آپکی بہت یاد آتی ہے لیکن میں اپنے آپ کو آپ کی زندگی میں بوجھ بھی نہیں بنانا چاہتی،، میں نہیں جانتی میرے دل میں آپ کے لیے اتنی محبت کیوں ہے؟؟

آپ نے مجھے زندگی کا مطلب سکھایا،

آپ نے مجھے انسانیت سکھائی،

آپ نے مجھے سوچنا سکھایا،

آپ نے مجھے بولنا سکھایا لیکن آپ نے مجھے اپنے آپ کے بغیر رہنا نہیں سکھایا، 

میں ہمیشہ سوچتی ہوں ایک دن آپ میری زندگی میں واپس آجائیں گی انشا اللہ۔

ویسے ہی آج کل مجھے آپ کی بہت یاد آرہی اس لیے آپ کی یاد میں ، میں ایسے الفاظ کی تلاش میں ہوں کہ میں آپ کو وہ بولوں اور آپ مجھ سے ناراضگی ختم کر دیں۔

کچھ دوست صرف دوست نہیں ہوتے بلکہ وہ زندگی ہوتے ہیں۔

I want to write about things , I want to write those things which makes me happy ,

I want to write about things , I want to write those things which makes me happy , I want to write about how someone could be happy by ignoring the baseless things:

اب دعا نہیں مانگی جاتی۔

Ab mjh se Namaz k bad dua may kuch nai manga Jata , na lab kuch arzo krty hain na palko se kuch mangnay ki ahat, na hi koi dunyavi khowaish or na hi khuda se koi zid or na hi koi justujo. 

Mjhe nai maloom ye theek ha k nai , lekin ab Dil ko tasalli hogai ha k Jo ho chuka wo behtar hoa or jo ho  RHA ha behtreen ho RHA hai.or jo hoga wo behtreen hoga, Or wo Khuda mjhe akela nai chory ga.  

Dil may aek itminaan sa hai k allah nay jo dia ha, jesay wo Meray liye hi tha. Mera is waqt yahan hona sb usi ki hikmat thi.

Or Meray khiyal se ye yakeen Ajana k Jo hoga behtreen hoga is yakeen ki jeet ha k Allah bnday ko akela nai chorhta.

Ye log , ye asbaab sb mohray hain hmay natijay ki trf lanay k liye Jo pehly se hi mehfooz hai.

Isliye khuda pr bharosa kryen. Or mutmayin hojaye or apnay rab k baray may badguman mut hon.Usay hmari zarorat nai ha hmay uski zarorat hai.

At times, you feel so tired with everything that occupies your head that you wish to vent out loud to someone–

At times, you feel so tired with everything that occupies your head that you wish to vent out loud to someone– to erupt like a volcano just to make the weight that sits on your chest feel less heavy. But it's also in those instances do we realize that we can't expect others to fully understand our hearts the way we do. And as much as we wish, we can't build a window on ourselves for people to have a peek inside and read the sorrow that resides within us; because the other person is just as weak and despondent as you are. 

everyone is carrying with themselves an emotional baggage that people surrounding know nothing about, sometimes that baggage is too heavy, sometimes it's not that heavy; but it's still hard to carry. And while we may possess the ability of taking some load off from others by listening to them and by being a shoulder to them to cry on, we can't truly perceive what their hearts perceive. 

At the end of the day, we're all equally tired wishing to be understood exactly like we understand ourselves..

Dear 2000 generation we are not teen anymore

Dear 2000 generation we are not teen anymore . All of us will now face different circumstances . Many of us will be graduating soon people will ask you about your jobs or marriage . You will lose many of your friends because of everyone's priorities . People will ask you everykind of question which they have asked from elder ones. Dear fellows people haven't changed . Now we have to change ourselves . 

Dosen't matter how intensily people will ask you about your job , marriage , house , car , financial status just keep in mind you have to remain calm and wait for your time .

Your time ? Where you will be praised when you will get what you wanted your time will be the right time. Yes wait can be long you might pass your 20's too but trust me dont overdo yourself to prove to the people that you have those particular things . Let's not inspire people who don't even matter to us .Let's change the tradition .Let's not complain about the things we will face because we aren't teen anymore . Now we will be expecting more responsible behaviour from ourselves. Happy new stage ⭐

"HE CONQUERS WHO ENDURES"