م پر جب مصیبت آتی ہے تو ہم اکثر یوں کہتے ہیں " میرے ساتھ ہی ایسا کیوں ہوا

ہم پر جب مصیبت آتی ہے تو ہم اکثر یوں کہتے ہیں " میرے ساتھ ہی ایسا کیوں ہوا دوسرے کے ساتھ بھی تو ہوسکتا تھا نہ"۔ شکر کریں آپ کے ساتھ ہی ہوا ہے۔ آپ حیران ہورہے ہونگے کہ شکر کس بات کا۔ دیکھیں شکر اس بات کا کہ اللّه اس مصیبت کے ذریعے آپ کی تربیت کرنا چاہتا ہے۔ آپ کو خود کے قریب کرنا چاہتا ہے۔ جب ہم پر تکلیف آتی ہے نہ تو دنیا والے آپ پر دروازہ بند کر لیتے ہیں۔ بس پھر ایک ہی در ہوتا ہے اللّه کا در جس کا دروازہ مصیبت انے سے پہلے بھی کھلا رہتا ہے اور مصیبت انے کے بعد بھی۔ 

جب دنیا کے سہارے آپکو تنہا کرد یتے ہیں تب آپ کو وہی اللّه سہارا دیتا ہے۔ ایک بار ٹوٹا دل آپ اس کے سپرد کردیں وہ اپکا دل پہلے سے زیادہ مضبوطی کے ساتھ جوڑ کر آپکو واپس کرے گا۔ پھر آپ احساس کریں گے کہ واقعی انسان کا کوئی نہیں اس رب کے سوا۔ ہاں واقعی کوئی نہیں ہے۔ اپکی زندگی اسی رب ذولجلال کے اردگرد گھومتی ہے۔ شکر گزار ہو جائیں آپ پر برا وقت آیا۔ ہاں تکلیف ہوئی آپکو لیکن آپ پہلے سے بہتر انسان بنے، آپ میں عاجزی آئی آپکو بہت کچھ سیکھنے کو ملا۔ آپ جو اس رب کو بھول بیٹھے تھے اس کے قریب ہوئے۔ آپ در حقیقت نکھر گئے۔ ہاں آپکا دل دکھا پر ایک بار اپنا آپ سارا اس رب کے حوالے کردیں وہ ہر تکلیف کو ایسے دور کردے گا جیسے کوئی تکلیف آپ پر کبھی ٹوٹی ہی نہیں تھی۔ مگر یقین شرط ہے اسکی۔ یقین جانیں بس وہی ایک اپکا اپنا ہے۔ وہ آپکو ہمت بھی دیتا ہے حوصلہ بھی دیتا ہے۔ اگر اس وقت میں جو لوگ آپ کے ساتھ رہے آپکا حوصلہ بنے۔ اپکی ہر بات کو برداشت کرتے رہے انہیں کبھی مت کھویے گا۔ یہی آپکے سچے دوست ہیں۔ میں سمجھتی ہوں دوست خوشی سے زیادہ غم کا ہوتا ہے۔ قدر کیجیےکیونکہ ہر کوئی آپکے ساتھ کھڑا نہیں ہوتا۔ 

خوش رہیں اور ایک دوسرے کو دعاؤں میں یاد رکھا کریں۔ یہی زندگی ہے .

At a certain point, after reading some kinds of books or meeting with some people,

At a certain point, after reading some kinds of books or meeting with some people, when we start looking back into our life, as I believe many of us do because of the curiosity we have within ourselves to know the way or the circumstances that built our ways to pursue the kind of life we have lived or reached so far, we start comprehending that how exactly our steps were shaped for the life we were destined to, and we get to know that in past when we were encountering those moments, we were not aware of those specific steps that would lead us to the experiences we are having right now, and at that point, we get to know that there was a kind of force so powerful that it drove inside ourselves an inclination which helped us pave the path towards our destination, and eventually we start believing in a supernatural power, which in our religion is, of course, our Almighty Allah. 

The realization of this power only comes after we start self-analyzing, and after we start knowing that there is someone who knew us at the time when we were unaware of ourselves even of an inch and made us incline towards the path we were suitable of the most. 

The need for this introspection induced God-realisation is important to build our self-esteem higher than what we think of it at every point we get judged, this build in us the self-confidence that helps us confront almost every sort of threat that intimidates us of being lonely.

She's a free soul. She lives happily in her own damn world & enjoy her own company

She's a free soul. She lives happily in her own damn world & enjoy her own company. She's a combination of sensitive & savage.

She faces negativity all around her buy you'll always find hope in her black shiny eyes. She needs no fancy clothes to make her look pretty. Her loyalty is her beauty. She don't chases anyone because she strongly believes that what belongs to her will surely come to her no matter what. She keeps her life private. She don't let anyone to reach her easily cuz she wants peace more than attention. 

She lives in sunsets & stars & moon. Nothing fascinates her more than the beauty of nature. She believes in Allah's plans for her more than anything & that's why she's always at peace knowing that God's plans are best. She's the happiest girl alive who don't just exists but lives her life with happiness & joy. She's always greatful for everything she had. She's beautiful not only for her looks but also deep inside the heart. She's is rare.

Analysing how this year has turned out to be for many of us and what permanent impact it has left on us - scars are left permanently in our heads and hearts.

Analysing how this year has turned out to be for many of us and what permanent impact it has left on us - scars are left permanently in our heads and hearts. 

Keeping those as a reminder of our experiences we all have to keep these memories(bitter or sweet) alive. 

And when years will pass and when, just when we will start living our lives just as ordinary as we lived last year and the years before that, we would then never want to revisit this year. This would be the time you'll have to keep it alive, alive and fresh in your memories and yourself. So you don't forget the lives lost in this battle! So you don't forget those, whose memories were passed onto you. So you don't forget the fact that you are carrying the existence of those thousands of people who had to battle themselves alone in the isolation wards, as brave as this world has ever seen, resisting against the Covid-19. 

We all were pushed down with this overpowering Pandemic. Stabbing us with minor and major blows, it has given us mental and physical scars! And if you haven't overcome this pain, I have faith that you will! And if you already have, then let these scars be your medals of surviving this year. Although we lost many, leaving us in pitch black darkness that stung us with all the might. Let's pledge that while as desperate as we want this year to end, we must not forget! And we'll carry the lessons learnt, and will advance, accompanying all of those strong survivors and will cherish the journeys that are meant to be covered by us in future.

Hey girl,

I really want to hold your hands and tell you that I have feelings for you. But, suddenly, I come to the truth. I don't want to lose an another soul of my life. I feel expressing my feelings can make you leave me, and I don't want to repeat the same story again. 

On one side, I always start conversations and on other side, you always finish them with the unexpected replies. I think you're also afraid of something. As much as I know about you is that you're living a mechanical life. You are all about studies and even if you go for fun then you watch English movies and listen to English songs that I don't understand.

I, most of the times, feel that we both are totally different but then I watch something that you recently share. That thing really relates to me. Your interest in religion, particular islam, in history and also in languages is kinda my kind of activities.

I feel like we are exactly same personalities in one sight and totally different humans in the other sight. So, it's better to keep the things as they are going on.

Putting yourself first on your priorty list is the utmost level of maturity. You don't owe everyone an explaination.

Putting yourself first on your priorty list is the utmost level of maturity.

You don't owe everyone an explaination.

The more you explain yourself to others the more they let you down. Imagine someone is showing you an enraged behaviour cuz you were not in a good state to be available for them. Are we gonna get upset with someone who is not feeling well? Sounds ridiculous? Right? 

Making everyone happy is cool but you are not allowed to go out of the way to satisfy them. You are not allowed to demolish your mental peace. Super high standards regarding everything are awful. Labelling insecurity as possessiveness or care is toxic. Don't indulge yourself in this toxicity.

Once you reach "I am not responsible to make everyone happy" kinda level your life becomes much more serene. 

Take a chill pill dude you are not everyone's cup of tea!✨

جس مصیبت پر صبر کر لیا جائے وہ بہت جلد ختم ہو جاتی ہے

جس مصیبت پر صبر کر لیا جائے وہ بہت جلد ختم ہو جاتی ہے لیکن اگر اسی مصیبت پر اللّٰه کی رضا سمجھ کر شکر کر لیا جائے تو وہ مصیبت بہت جلد خوشی میں تبدیل ہو جاتی ہے، بات صرف اللّٰه پر توکل کی ہے..

There are times when I can't stop thinking about the past that haunts me. There are times when I feel too numb

There are times when I can't stop thinking about the past that haunts me. There are times when I feel too numb. Too emotional to show how I feel. Too anxious to speak because of the emotions that clog up my throat. I felt that pain again, yesterday,

Yeah! yesterday,

I wanted to yell, cracking my larynx to match the intensity of my throbbing heart. I wanted to scream, so loud that my lungs would tear apart into little fragments, just the way I wanted to be disintegrated into nothingness.

 

The pain was like drowning in the brightest but the deepest of oceans, where I felt numb, where the humming of quietness and the screaming of silence had me so passionately immersed within itself that I had no desire to resurface.

It was like walking in a desert where the sand was soft but engulfing. I had to drag my feet out with each step. My throat was drier than the sand under my feet but I couldn't find any periphery.

It was like walking into the forest drunk on its mesmerizing beauty but after getting lost within it, it lost the beauty, the sharp twigs and broken branches pierced through my skin. The green masses of forest scared me causing despair and desperation.

I don't fancy anguish.I don't desire the nausea that appears with constant anxiety.But sometimes, the pain that has gone far away, dimmer than the dimmest star in the sky comes back infuriating agony of the breakdowns I had. Those are the times when the numb feeling appears. The time when silence starts screaming.The time when I can't stop thinking about the past.

I wonder how important are our personal goals in life

I wonder how important are our personal goals in life. Aik to dead end goals hotay hein you achieve them and enter into a state of emptiness..'I got this so now what..what's next..does it even matter?' Someone dear to me once told me 'apnay aik goal ko hmesha unachievable rakhna' and this has stayed with me since then. Goal aisa hona chaye jo apko agay ki traf push karay aur improvement ki traf lay k jaye hmesha aur aisa na ho k once you achieved that you get empty or proud aur ye to sb k sath hota hy k jo hasil hojaye wo valuable nai lgta jitna tb valuable lgta hy jb wo unachievable hota hy. Goal should be something that keeps you going and something that keeps you in flow. Reassess your goals in life and ask yourself 'does it really matter in the end?' I don't deny the importance of materialistic goals like to make more money, to get a better job, a better degree to survive better in life but one should always keep in mind that even if you get the whole world and what is in it, it still would't be enough to fill the emptiness in you. Make goals that feed your soul and those that make your life more meaningful, goals that don't make you fearful of death. I love the Japanese concept 'ikigai' that means the reason for being. I believe every person on earth has a reason for being and its soleley one's personal quest to pursue one's inner calling. I will quote two Rumi quotes here for inspiration

"Respond to every soul that excites your spirit."

"Don't be safisfied with stories; how things have gone with others. Unfold your own myth."

Your goals may not match with others because just like everything is unique about you be it your being, your circumstances ,your aptitude, your personal choices similarly so are your goals in life. Aur Quran mein b yehi kaha gya hy k hr insaan se uski وسعت k mutabiq hisaab lia jaye ga. 

Don't view your goal as big or small. The key is persistence. Persistence is the only quality I admire in the devil. He never gives up no matter how many times we beat him. A small but persistent goal can do more wonders for you than a seemingly big but dead-end goal.

کبھی کبھی میں سوچتی ہوں کاش میرے پاس کچھ ایسے الفاظ ہوتے کہ میں اپنے آپ سے ناراض لوگوں کو بولتی اور وہ لوگ اپنی ناراضگی ختم کردیتے

کبھی کبھی میں سوچتی ہوں کاش میرے پاس کچھ ایسے الفاظ ہوتے کہ میں اپنے آپ سے ناراض لوگوں کو بولتی اور وہ لوگ اپنی ناراضگی ختم کردیتے،، کبھی کبھی مجھے اپنی دوست کی بہت یاد آتی ہے میں ہر طرف دیکھتی ہوں کہ میری دوست میری زندگی واپس کیسے آئے گی لیکن پھر میں بے بس ہو جاتی ہوں اور میں اللہ جی سے مخاطب ہو جاتی ہوں اور اپنے اللہ جی سے کہتی ہوں اللہ جی میں بے بس ہوگئی ہوں پلیز میری مدد کر دیجئے ناں،، پھر میرے دل میں خیال آتا ہے کہ میری دوست کی زندگی میں میری اب کوئی جگہ نہیں بنتی لیکن پھر بھی مجھے میری دوست کیوں یاد آتی ہیں،، میں چاہ کر بھی آپ کو اپنی زندگی سے اپنی یادوں سے دور نہیں کر پا رہی۔ میں اداس نہیں رہتی میں بہت خوش رہتی ہوں ، میں مایوسی ہیں میں مبتلا نہیں ہوں میں پُر امید ہوں لیکن مجھے آپ کی بہت یاد آتی ہے،، میں نہیں جانتی لیکن پتہ نہیں آپ میرے لیے اتنی اہم کیوں ہیں؟؟ 

اللہ کی رضا میں راضی ہوں لیکن مجھے آپکی بہت یاد آتی ہے لیکن میں اپنے آپ کو آپ کی زندگی میں بوجھ بھی نہیں بنانا چاہتی،، میں نہیں جانتی میرے دل میں آپ کے لیے اتنی محبت کیوں ہے؟؟

آپ نے مجھے زندگی کا مطلب سکھایا،

آپ نے مجھے انسانیت سکھائی،

آپ نے مجھے سوچنا سکھایا،

آپ نے مجھے بولنا سکھایا لیکن آپ نے مجھے اپنے آپ کے بغیر رہنا نہیں سکھایا، 

میں ہمیشہ سوچتی ہوں ایک دن آپ میری زندگی میں واپس آجائیں گی انشا اللہ۔

ویسے ہی آج کل مجھے آپ کی بہت یاد آرہی اس لیے آپ کی یاد میں ، میں ایسے الفاظ کی تلاش میں ہوں کہ میں آپ کو وہ بولوں اور آپ مجھ سے ناراضگی ختم کر دیں۔

کچھ دوست صرف دوست نہیں ہوتے بلکہ وہ زندگی ہوتے ہیں۔