I just sat there and in a moment of truth I just realized

I just sat there and in a moment of truth I just realized I missed so much irreplaceable moments because I was busy thinking about what will happen next, 

Or I was engraved into my endless doubts and fears, I have skipped smiles, laughters, I have unnoticed very obvious beauties, I have lost epic feelings because I wasn't really sure I should feel them to the fullest, I pushed away gentle people, I let go of amazing chances, 

I did it unintentionally but it turned that whatever passes us by will never get back again.

I have left places where pieces of me were shreded,

I have left places where pieces of me were shreded, smashed but also some missing parts fulfilled me, I have abonded paths were my heart was unmercifully broken but also amazingly loved, I walked over old scars that still bleed somewhere within me but there also is where I recongnized my strength, I have swallowed moments where I wished I never existed but yet I did survive, I let go people that had the dearest part of my heart but I kept their good memory into my veins, I have known defeat, depression and excessive pain but I also knew hope, joy and happiness, So I knew that eventually I shall leave again and again but I just have to do my best so when leaving I will have a bunch of goodness to write in my journey.

He said once, you will thank me one day we didn't continue our story

He said once, you will thank me one day we didn't continue our story, back then it didn't mean anything except leaving a scar to my heart, but now I realize that sometimes love can be reshaped into 100 of ways, that sometimes to keep that love glowing in a deep corner in your heart you need to be apart, that sometimes keeping the good memories can be a reason for you to go on in your bad days, that it's better to say I have once lived and loved than to keep hating parts of yourself because you couldn't work it out with someone you so much cheriched, that sometimes you can love them forever but believe your destinations are not meant to collide, that sometimes you can keep your favorite person alive but intact with your personal fears and darkness beacuse somehow you know you both couldn't fight your own insecurities. You better let go with love.

I have learned to walk with grace even if the night before I was awfully desprate

I have learned to walk with grace even if the night before I was awfully desprate, I have learned that trying is my only way to survive, that I should wear my smile till it become a part of my day, I have learned to keep carrying platelets of love even if darkness and hate have so much surrounded me, I have learned that somehow giving was the most real thing that watered my soul and that there's a reason of why I'm still breathing, I should never forget that. 🥀

رفتہ رفتہ تھم گیا مانوس آوازوں کا شور، دل میں یادیں ڈائری میں فون نمبر رہ گئے!

رفتہ رفتہ تھم گیا مانوس آوازوں کا شور، 

دل میں یادیں ڈائری میں فون نمبر رہ گئے!

ایسا کیوں ہوتا ہے کہ جو ہمارے جینے کا سبب ہوتا ہے وہی ہماری موت کا باعث بھی بن جاتا ہے؟

یہ ہے تو ایک سوال لیکن کچھ سوالوں کے جواب ہمیں ساری زندگی نہیں ملتے

پہلے پہل ایک شخص نظر کو اچھا لگتا ہے،ہمیں ہر برا دن اسی کی وجہ سے اچھا لگنا شروع ہوجاتا ہے لیکن جیسے ہی وقت گزرتا ہے اور ہمیں اس انسان کی عادت ہوتی ہے تو وہ ہم سے دور کیوں کر دیا جاتا ہے؟

شاید آزمائیش ہر پسندیدہ چیز سے ہی شروع ہوتی ہے!

وہ دوست ہوسکتا ہے یا پھر ہماری محبت

ہماری پسند کو ہم سے ہر حال میں جدا ہونا پڑتا ہے لیکن ایسے لوگ بھی ہیں جو رب پر بھروسہ کرتے ہیں اور کھوئی ہوئی چیز واپس ان کے نصیب میں ڈال دی جاتی ہے

باتیں کرنے والے تو بے شمار ملیں گے لیکن غور ان لوگوں پر کرو جو تم میں خدا کی صفات ڈھونڈتے ہیں 

جو تمہیں پسند کرتے ہیں

اگر تم نے اپنی پسند کھو دی تو ایک بات یاد رکھنا لوگ تو وہی اچھے ہوتے ہیں جو اپنے ساتھ ہونے والے حادثے کو دوسروں پر مسلط نہیں کرتے

زندگی ایک سفر کا نام ہے،آزمائیش کا نام ہے لیکن کھوئی ہوئی چیز کا گم زندگی میں نا ہو تو بہتر ہے!

دعا تو تقدیر بدل دیتی ہے 

جو کھو دیا ہے تم نے وہ ایک دعا سے واپس بھی مل سکتا ہے 

بات ہے تو بس رب پہ اندھے اعتماد کی!!!!

One In Four

"One in four girls will know what it's like, to be broken. One in four girls will know the pain, of having their hearts torn apart, and their souls ripped wide open. One in four girls will have to learn to compartmentalize a pain, they never should have known. One in four girls will lose their childhood. 

One in four girls, will feel like they're always walking alone. I close my eyes, and I see them. And I want to do everything in my power, to save them. One in four girls; just like me, will struggle to feel any happiness or relief. They will grapple with who they were meant to be. They will plaster on a fake smile for the world, and hide all their feelings of shame underneath. I was sitting in the hair salon just the other week. And I saw two little girls draped from their mama's arms, and two in tow beneath. They were laughing and playing. And I thought to myself, which one of these precious little girls, will know the pain of abuse and sleepless nights? Which one of these precious little souls, will lose a piece of their light? You see, this is why I do this work. I wake up every morning, and I bleed these words that I write. I have to do something. It has to make a difference. Somehow, it has to save a life. I am reaching souls, that have known this pain I've spoken. But what about saving the ones, who have not yet been broken? I feel the weight of this burden every day; to fix the souls like mine who are shattered, while still fighting to keep more predators at bay. These statistics go swirling through my brain every day. 

Sometimes they render me unable to function. Unable to eat. Unable to know what is still left to say. I vomit this pain every day on these pages. I do all I can, to spew out my self hatred; to rid myself of a shame, that never belonged to me. I've spent my whole life in a war zone, fighting so incredibly hard, just to breathe. And I don't want this for them; not for any other girl. I want to protect them. I want to keep them safe. I am fiercely determined, to change the world. I need to fix this. I won't stop, until I do. They are counting on us, to break our silence. I am here listening; are you? I care more now, than I ever have before. My eyes have been opened, and I can't just close the door. I will fight, until these statistics change. I will fight, until there are no victims anymore. I won't stop fighting, until the number stands at zero. And right now it's still sitting, at one in four." 

AL-MUNTAQIM

🤍 AL-MUNTAQIM🤍

                   The Avenger.

If someone has done wrong with you,someone makes fun of you or if someone hurts your  feelings.Do not be sad or disappointed.Just go to ALLAH, make a dua and leave the case on Him.You do not have to fear them.Because Allah has given you the most powerful weapon and that weapon is DUA.

.Use that weapon.Ask ALLAH for justice.Because He is THE JUST.He is AL-WAKEEL.He'll give you the justice.His justice is not like the justice of this world which is only for rich who can hire the lawyers and poor people do not get the justice because they do not have enough money to hire a lawyer.Where poor and rich are treated differently.But ALLAH doesn't care who you are.If you've enough money or not and ALLAH doesn't care who your opponent is.

If your opponent is rich or not.If he is powerful or not.If people are unjust,you'll get your justice from AL-HAKAM.Ask him for the help and all your worries will be gone.He is seeing everything.He is listening everything including your DUA.He'll do the right thing on the right time.Keep your believe in Him and His justice and you'll see how He'll take your revenge.Leave your matter to Him.🌸

Keep making Dua and surely they'll be answered by THE ONE who is LISTENING and THE SEEING.

what i have learned in these 25 years of my life is

what i have learned in these 25 years of my life is, empathy doesn't come in a day or two. we throw this word around in the air so much but only some of us know what it actually mean.

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i often wonder, if my tears could speak, what would they say? if dark circles under my eyes could scream, what words would come out of them? if the smile I wear on my brave days breaks down, what would be the process? 

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its possible, and its actually very common that you can't relate with people going through traumas if you haven't been through one. sometimes when we are listening to others, there is a voice in our head saying "why isn't he/she moving on, its been ages now." or sometimes we try to make them feel better by taking them out or forcing them to come back to life, and its completely out of love. i get that. i do.

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but what I am trying to say is, when we go through phases of grief, loss, helplessness, avoidance and distraction doesn't help. there is a void, there is emptiness and nothing can fill that. 

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at times like these, the person feels like the burden he is carrying is the heaviest. the person might not be able to acknowledge the "truths" we try to tell them. truth is, they can't. they don't know how to. they might start telling you that your problems are nothing in front of theirs because they can't see beyond theirs. Patience, acceptance, forgiveness, moving on are processes, interlinked with each other. 

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even if you can't relate, just listen. listening is the first rule of empathy. its not necessary for you to relate with everything. don't force moving on, you can't take away the pain forcefully because it demands to be felt. 

and those who are suffering, you are not complaining or being ungrateful by talking or expressing it out.

you are very brave, you breathe each day and if that isn't bravery, I don't know what is.

love, strength and prayers, always.

I ,you and most of people in our society come across these situations often in our daily life

I ,you and most of people in our society come across these situations often in our daily life.

 It  is very common in our society specially outside banks and shops women and senior citizens are given priority and they get their turn earlier without following any qeue regardless of how many other people have been waiting for their turn for many hours . 

It is quite considerable that old people don't have good health so they can't wait much and stand in queue but I don't think there is any considerable reason for females not to follow queue .

 And now it is  becoming common practice whenever people see long queues outside banks or shops they just go back home and come along with old member or female member of their family and get their work done in just few minutes without any wait contrary to those who wait for hours to get their turn .Today I had to go to bank to submit my university  fee , I have seen this happening . Let's share a small incident with you , today I was waiting for my turn outside bank and 7-8 people were ahead of me waiting for their turn . Suddenly a man came along with his father and bought mask from adjacent pharmacy and gave it to his father and  asked him to go inside the bank as he was old so he will not have to wait ,now uncle went inside and  was  insisting again and again to take his son along with him but gaurds said only you should go but  , after 4-5 minutes uncle called his son inside after getting token 😂 and this way that man got his work done without any wait just because of his father while people who came before them were still waiting for their turn . It's just a one story , it's happens alot of times, sometimes outside banks sometimes at naan shops and sometimes at  others places. I am of the view that the separates lines /qeues for males and females are absolutely ridiculous , rather there should be token system , person regardless of male or female should get token and wait for his or her turn and get work done at his or her turn .  Females and males both should be treated equally and both should wait for their turn.Kindly don't link it with feminism or anti feminism  .

It's just my point of view you may disagree  .Do share your views , opinions in comment section.

لوگوں کی محبت کو اپنا غم مت بناؤ پس لوگوں کے دل تو الٹتے پلٹتے رهتے ہیں ۔

لوگوں کی محبت کو اپنا غم مت بناؤ

پس لوگوں کے دل تو الٹتے پلٹتے رهتے ہیں ۔ 

لوگ کبھی بھی وہ نہیں ہوتے جو نظر اتے ہیں.ہر انسان کے اندر اور بہت سے انسان بسے ہوتے ہیں ۔ جو موقع کی تلاش میں رهتے ہیں ۔اور موقع ملتے ہی باہر نکل اتے ہیں ۔ 

کوئی سفاک 

کوئی مہربان 

کوئی ملنسار 

کوئی دھوکے باز 

کوئی دوغلا 

کوئی ہنس مکھ 

تو کوئی تلخی سے بھرا ہوا ۔ 

ایک لمحہ آپ کے ساتھ تو دوسرے ہی لمحے آپ کے خلاف آپ کو پتا بھی نہیں چلتا ۔ کون کہاں بدل جاے ۔ برسوں کے تعلقات منٹوں میں ختم ہو جاتے ہیں ۔آپ جتنی مرضی کوشش کر لیں آپ لوگوں کو نہیں جان سکتے ۔ آپ کسی کو جاننے کا دعوا بھی نہیں کر سکتے ۔ آپ یہ کبھی نہیں جان سکتے کہ بند دروازوں کے پیچھے کوئی کس حال سے گزر رہا ہے ۔ 

ہو سکتا ہے کوئی کتنا خوش نظر آے ، کسی کی ہنسی کتنی ہی بلند کیوں نہ ہو ، وہ کسی ایسے غم اور تکلیف کا سامنا کر رہا ہو جو نا قابل بیان ہو

آپ لوگوں سے نرمی برتیں ۔ خواہ آپ کو جواب میں تلخی ہی کیوں نا ملے ۔ درگزر کرنا سیکھیں ۔اور اپنی امیدوں کو صرف اور صرف اللّه پاک سے وابستہ کر لیں.