بنالو خود کو پارسا دنیا کی نظروں میں

بنالو خود کو پارسا دنیا کی نظروں میں

پر ان سجدوں میں منافقت نہیں چلتی

کہ جسکو سجدہ تم کرتے ہو جانتا ہے تمہاری روح کا حال

روند کر کسی کا حال یوں بازی نہیں پلٹتی

پردے رکھے ہوئے ہے تب تک جی لو تم بھی کھل کر

اٹھیں گے جب یہ پردے پھر اداکاری نہیں چلتی

نہیں چلتی کوئی سفارش نہیں آتے کام پھر یہ اشک

بھلا کر آخرت پھر یہ دنیاداری نہیں چلتی

مظلوم کی آہ ہلا دیتی ہے عرش 

ظلم کرکے پھر بغاوتیں نہیں چلتی۔

In the dreams I see

In the dreams I see,

The face of a person I once knew,

After the days full of agony,

This face paints my nights anew,

The unbearable restlessness of the day,

is replaced with joy so merry,

I wish i could forever stay,

in the dreams where i am right beside you,

Losing you was the price i paid,

For the mistakes i did and the things i said,

I wish i could turn back the time, run back to you,

Wish i could hold you and confess my stupidity,

Wish we could walk again,

My hand in your hand

I couldn't count the cost of love when bill was due,

Couldn't reset the clock that was running miles ahead of me,

The mistakes I made were solely mine,

O i cursed the day i punished you,

I am lost now, somebody please find me,

Lost in the woods I planted to shelter myself from my own thoughts,

I'll pay the bill, even beg if i have to 

To feel the love i once felt with you.  

 

تم نے دیکھا نہیں ہے فلموں میں

تم نے دیکھا نہیں ہے فلموں میں ؟

ایسے کون کہتا ہے محبت ہے ؟

پہلے لاؤ میرے من پسند تحفے 

پھر کہنا ، یار محبت ہے 🌸

“I am sorry...”

"I am sorry..."

Three words—

and it changes everything.

Just like that…

Sorry...

because you can't fight for me?

Sorry...

because you can't love me?

Sorry...

for what?

For making me 

fall so hard?

For giving me 

false hope?

For letting me believe

that you'll be the last person 

to ever break my heart?

Why?

Why can't I stop 

this tears?

Why can't I stop 

this heart from breaking?

Why can't I stop 

my heart from hoping

that you'll change your mind.

Please,

make me understand...

What have I done?

پانی پھینکتے ہوئے شیشے کا گلاس ہاتھ سے نکل جائے

پانی پھینکتے ہوئے شیشے کا گلاس ہاتھ سے نکل جائے😑

چھلکوں کی پلیٹ کچرا دان سے ایک انچ کے فاصلے پر الٹ جائے……😒

زیب تن کرنے سے پہلے استری شدہ قمیض باتھ روم کے گیلےفرش پر گر جائے……😓

گرم توے پہ ٹوسٹ سے پہلے آپ کا ہاتھ لگ جائے……🌚

ان چاہا میسج " seen" ہو جائے ۔۔🤧

 چائے کی پیالی ہاتھ پر چھلک جائے۔۔🤒

 تو مت سوچیں یہ آپکا پھوہڑپن اور بے دھیانی ہے😒🤕

 بلکہ کامل یقین رکھیں اور زیر لب ورد کرتے رہیں کہ نظر لگی ہے ، نظر لگی ، نظر لگی ہے۔۔💔😞

ہاں نی تو😭😭😭😭

"You've changed a lot."

"You've changed a lot."

You know, people really needs to understand that growth requires separation— cutting of irrelevant people, breaking toxic behavior and cycles, disconnecting yourself from noisy crowd to comfortably breathe and decompress, or anything that needs to be detached for you to be able to become better and grow more as an individual.

Growth is not superficial. It doesn't just happen in a wink not either snap. Growth process is messy. It will make you feel good and uncomfortable at times. It is a very complex and erratic array of circumstances. 

No matter what other people would say; those twist and turns together with all the uncertainties this life might bring, know that everything good we do for ourselves, regardless of its form, is all worth it. 

It will all make sense one day; and you'll find enough reason to finally be inlove in life again.

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مجھے سورج کے جیسے انسان بہت اچھے لگتے ہیں۔۔

مجھے سورج کے جیسے انسان بہت اچھے لگتے ہیں۔۔

دہکتے ہوئے ، روشن ، غضبناک۔۔۔

لیکن حرارت ، روشنی اور زندگی دینے والے۔

جیسے دور سے نظر آتے ہیں ویسے ہی قریب جانے پر بھی دِکھتے ہیں۔

کوئی تبدیلی یا تصنع نہیں ہوتی۔

And one of the things that always hunts and troubles me

And one of the things that always hunts and troubles  me. Is  that perhaps I'll turn out to be the bad person here.   I know I'm no angel but I don't want to be the bad person.   I don't like the idea that I might have  hurt someone or cause  them pain somehow.  I don't want to carry someone's burden over my shoulder. I want to pass this life feather lightly. 

آنکھیں تیرے تابع کر دی گئی ہیں

آنکھیں تیرے تابع کر دی گئی ہیں 

ان کا کِھل اُٹھنا، 

مُرجھا جانا 

تیرے نظر آنے،

 نہ آنے سے وابستہ ہے ...

Looking at the dark sky at midnight I was thinking that how tragically life

Looking at the dark sky at midnight I was thinking that how tragically life plays with us sometime the most horrible games that we can't even get what actually has happened to us! How foolishly we have played our part and got manipulated just cause of our innocence and loyalty. In this present world where everyone is busy having advantage of other I am like that opened door of coffee shop that says, "hey, come here and have a free coffee and come again whenever uh want doesn't matter if uh liked coffee or not, I'll always be there to provide even a better one than previous." And that's where I guess I am taken as for granted that no matter how good I am, how helpful I am I will always be used by them and then will be forgotton like I never ever existed! 

Tiredly I sat down on that last stair and thought it is okay, it is all okay! One day, at least one day there will be someone who will understand that how worthy am I and will respect my worth and that will be enough for me, just a single person who understands me the way I am! ♥✨🌸!