The smell of your perfume or the sound of our favourite tune will be easier to ignore

The smell of your perfume or the sound of our favourite tune will be easier to ignore

Furthermore I'll forget your promises to which you swore

One day , I'll stop searching up your name when all that follows is damn shame

One day , I'll stop writing long paragraphs without having the courage to hit send

One day all of my craziness will come to an end

I'll never compare someones eyes or smile to yours 

I'll never give in , crying behind closed doors

Who am i kidding? What's with all these lies ...

True love never dies those are words of the wise

Those little flashblacks will always tear up my eyes 

I'll never get over you

I'm just gonna have to keep growing through what I'm going through.

But Your happiness means more to me 

Than my own ever could

That's why I'll keep my silence

To not break your marriage just to do your heart good. 

This is my goodbye. I'm letting you go

Your name , your secrets will always be kept safe

Nobody will ever know

I'm Letting go of the love that I couldn't save.

The four years spent together 

Everytime i saw you

you could've knocked me down with a feather 

I'd like to think The best chapter of my story was yours

But i was wrong , you were the entire book

I had nothing left in my heart after everything that you took

My patience

My self-esteem

My confidence

I guess you had me on a hook

You were my silent prayer at night 

In darkness you were my light

Every wrong for you i would rewrite

For your happiness I'd put up a fight

The reason i wanted to become a better person was you

The reason i had faith in love again was you

The reason I'd neglect everyone else was you

But one day my worst nightmare came true

When you left, all you had to say was that we were a mistake

The words still keep me awake

I can still feel the ache

You don't feel the same way anymore , you don't think you can put up with me anymore

What was all of it really for?

Did i take the love of my life really for granted?

when she was and always will be all that i ever wanted?

Cursed for all my actions

Lost myself in fake lies and deceptions

As to this day I'm broken. 

for so long all these thoughts had been unspoken

I know i need to be mature

See the bigger picture

But do You really think my memories won't haunt you in your future?

You wanna know what true love really is?

That i accept the fact that your not mine but his. 

But don't worry I'll forget you one day

I'll mean it when i say I'm okay

The sound of your name won't take my breath away anymore

The smell of your perfume or the sound of our favourite tune will be easier to ignore

Furthermore I'll forget your promises to which you swore

One day , I'll stop searching up your name when all that follows is damn shame

One day , I'll stop writing long paragraphs without having the courage to hit send

One day all of my craziness will come to an end

I'll never compare someones eyes or smile to yours 

I'll never give in , crying behind closed doors

Who am i kidding? What's with all these lies ...

True love never dies those are words of the wise

Those little flashblacks will always tear up my eyes 

I'll never get over you

I'm just gonna have to keep growing through what I'm going through.

But Your happiness means more to me 

Than my own ever could

That's why I'll keep my silence

To not break your marriage just to do your heart good. 

This is my goodbye. I'm letting you go

Your name , your secrets will always be kept safe

Nobody will ever know

I'm Letting go of the love that I couldn't save.

DIWALI

DIWALI. What to say about this or any other festival when you hit a certain age. It's bit disappointing to see how time changes many things, things that you never appreciated when you were a kid, khair itni samjh hy nh thy tb jo samjh sagtay k what time will bring in future. Irrespective of the fact as adult we don't do much being at home on any festival except scrolling and forwarding greeting and saying thankyou in return. You never realise being at home is itself a blessing until  it's your first festival where you're not at home. No excitement, no new clothes and  no preperation. Trust me being at home and doing nothing is far better than being away from home sitting on the terrace of a house(which is basically not yours)looking at the sky thinking about the times where your mom had made sweet forcing you to eat, thinking about the times where all your czns gathered on the night of festival and laughing so hard that you think you're about to die at those lame jokes.

Well well well, the joy and excitement for DIWALI was never same again! 

HAPPY DIWALI TO EACH AND EVERYONE OUT THERE WHO CAN RELATE THIS. ♥️♥️

کیا اس سے کبھی تیرا جانا ہوا ،

کیا اس  سے کبھی تیرا جانا ہوا ،

جہاں سے زمانے کو گزرے زمانہ ہوا ۔ 

Song: Khamoshiyan 🌻

Yaqenan har kise ki zindage mein bohat say ese rasty ,galiiyaan aur purany alfaz hotay hay jo Unky chahny waly unhy tohfay ki suraat naawaz jaty hay phir usky baad unhy uss rasty se guzrty hui kese pehli barish me sath bheg jana yaad ajyee ya use rasty se guzrty huay kse ka akhiri deedar yaad ajye .mai aajj bhe un rasto se guzrti hu jinme tm hamesha sath hotay thay aur tumhari khushbu ka tasalsul barqarar rehta tha, aj bhe uss surqh gulaab se mjhy wese hi khushbu aati hay jo pehli bar mehsus hui , jab tum canteen me ghanto mery samny khamosh rahy uss waqt ki aziyaat bhe yaad hay mujhy . najany kaaiy salon baad bhe hum logo ki di hui mohaabato aur qurbaton ko bayan nahi karskty bhaly zamana uss gali se jitna aagy nikl jaaye mai uss jagah ajj bhe tumhy apny sath ghumta hua dekhti hu jaha hum khush thy.thy na? aur abb, mehaaz waqt ki farham karda chand yaaden hai.

 میرا سمئے تو وہی پہ ہے ٹھہرا ہوا ،

بتاؤ تجھے کیا ؟ میرے ساتھ کیا کیا ہوا .

خاموشیاں 🌻

بنالو خود کو پارسا دنیا کی نظروں میں

بنالو خود کو پارسا دنیا کی نظروں میں

پر ان سجدوں میں منافقت نہیں چلتی

کہ جسکو سجدہ تم کرتے ہو جانتا ہے تمہاری روح کا حال

روند کر کسی کا حال یوں بازی نہیں پلٹتی

پردے رکھے ہوئے ہے تب تک جی لو تم بھی کھل کر

اٹھیں گے جب یہ پردے پھر اداکاری نہیں چلتی

نہیں چلتی کوئی سفارش نہیں آتے کام پھر یہ اشک

بھلا کر آخرت پھر یہ دنیاداری نہیں چلتی

مظلوم کی آہ ہلا دیتی ہے عرش 

ظلم کرکے پھر بغاوتیں نہیں چلتی۔

In the dreams I see

In the dreams I see,

The face of a person I once knew,

After the days full of agony,

This face paints my nights anew,

The unbearable restlessness of the day,

is replaced with joy so merry,

I wish i could forever stay,

in the dreams where i am right beside you,

Losing you was the price i paid,

For the mistakes i did and the things i said,

I wish i could turn back the time, run back to you,

Wish i could hold you and confess my stupidity,

Wish we could walk again,

My hand in your hand

I couldn't count the cost of love when bill was due,

Couldn't reset the clock that was running miles ahead of me,

The mistakes I made were solely mine,

O i cursed the day i punished you,

I am lost now, somebody please find me,

Lost in the woods I planted to shelter myself from my own thoughts,

I'll pay the bill, even beg if i have to 

To feel the love i once felt with you.  

 

تم نے دیکھا نہیں ہے فلموں میں

تم نے دیکھا نہیں ہے فلموں میں ؟

ایسے کون کہتا ہے محبت ہے ؟

پہلے لاؤ میرے من پسند تحفے 

پھر کہنا ، یار محبت ہے 🌸

“I am sorry...”

"I am sorry..."

Three words—

and it changes everything.

Just like that…

Sorry...

because you can't fight for me?

Sorry...

because you can't love me?

Sorry...

for what?

For making me 

fall so hard?

For giving me 

false hope?

For letting me believe

that you'll be the last person 

to ever break my heart?

Why?

Why can't I stop 

this tears?

Why can't I stop 

this heart from breaking?

Why can't I stop 

my heart from hoping

that you'll change your mind.

Please,

make me understand...

What have I done?

پانی پھینکتے ہوئے شیشے کا گلاس ہاتھ سے نکل جائے

پانی پھینکتے ہوئے شیشے کا گلاس ہاتھ سے نکل جائے😑

چھلکوں کی پلیٹ کچرا دان سے ایک انچ کے فاصلے پر الٹ جائے……😒

زیب تن کرنے سے پہلے استری شدہ قمیض باتھ روم کے گیلےفرش پر گر جائے……😓

گرم توے پہ ٹوسٹ سے پہلے آپ کا ہاتھ لگ جائے……🌚

ان چاہا میسج " seen" ہو جائے ۔۔🤧

 چائے کی پیالی ہاتھ پر چھلک جائے۔۔🤒

 تو مت سوچیں یہ آپکا پھوہڑپن اور بے دھیانی ہے😒🤕

 بلکہ کامل یقین رکھیں اور زیر لب ورد کرتے رہیں کہ نظر لگی ہے ، نظر لگی ، نظر لگی ہے۔۔💔😞

ہاں نی تو😭😭😭😭

"You've changed a lot."

"You've changed a lot."

You know, people really needs to understand that growth requires separation— cutting of irrelevant people, breaking toxic behavior and cycles, disconnecting yourself from noisy crowd to comfortably breathe and decompress, or anything that needs to be detached for you to be able to become better and grow more as an individual.

Growth is not superficial. It doesn't just happen in a wink not either snap. Growth process is messy. It will make you feel good and uncomfortable at times. It is a very complex and erratic array of circumstances. 

No matter what other people would say; those twist and turns together with all the uncertainties this life might bring, know that everything good we do for ourselves, regardless of its form, is all worth it. 

It will all make sense one day; and you'll find enough reason to finally be inlove in life again.

_

مجھے سورج کے جیسے انسان بہت اچھے لگتے ہیں۔۔

مجھے سورج کے جیسے انسان بہت اچھے لگتے ہیں۔۔

دہکتے ہوئے ، روشن ، غضبناک۔۔۔

لیکن حرارت ، روشنی اور زندگی دینے والے۔

جیسے دور سے نظر آتے ہیں ویسے ہی قریب جانے پر بھی دِکھتے ہیں۔

کوئی تبدیلی یا تصنع نہیں ہوتی۔